1 Save me, O God,
for the floodwaters are up to my neck.
2 Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire;
I can’t find a foothold.
I am in deep water,
and the floods overwhelm me.
3 I am exhausted from crying for help;
my throat is parched.
My eyes are swollen with weeping,
waiting for my God to help me.
Keeping my eyes above the waves...that is the phrase I have used a thousand and five times. Now, I know where that phrase was derived from for that song. This is how I feel 99.5% of the time. Like I’m one wave away from drowning.
I mean, people have gone through much worse than I have in their lives. Honestly, I cannot imagine the pain that some of my friends are continuing to walk through. Loss of marriages, children, spouses, jobs, etc. It is almost more than my mind can bear. Yet, we have gone through a lot in the past 5 yrs (well, the past 14 if you wanna get technical LOL).
I know that my lack of trust is a factor in my drowning feeling. I’m learning how to talk about things but I still keep things very close to my heart. I share, but it is not complete sharing, does that make sense? Share enough to get my point across but not enough to bare my soul.
4 Those who hate me without cause
outnumber the hairs on my head.
Many enemies try to destroy me with lies,
demanding that I give back what I didn’t steal.
5 O God, you know how foolish I am;
my sins cannot be hidden from you.
6 Don’t let those who trust in you be ashamed because of me,
O Sovereign Lord of Heaven’s Armies.
Don’t let me cause them to be humiliated,
O God of Israel.
7 For I endure insults for your sake;
humiliation is written all over my face.
8 Even my own brothers pretend they don’t know me;
they treat me like a stranger.
Recently, I have had to have some introspection going on with some issues. Social media can be the root of evil. Honestly, a lot of it is. Yet, I have learned the art of the “unfollow” button but more importantly the reporting ads function.
I am so sick of seeing half-naked women on there wanting me to buy bras, underwear, or shapewear. My husband and I have a joint account. He certainly does not need to get on there and see that crap. Learning to report the ad has stopped those ads. That has been one issue resolved.
I have my own thoughts on politics but I do not discuss them. It is not worth getting into a war of words with another human. I choose to “hide” a discussion or “unfollow” until a certain election is over. It just keeps peace in my heart.
The Real Issue
Recently I have been on the wrong end of the stick with someone. This is a person that I have held dear to my heart and for a reason that is foreign to me, I have upset this person. Enough so, she has “unfriended” me. A year ago, that would have upset me so badly.
This time, however, it truly does not bother me. I cannot control the perception of this person. Then there is the choice to not bait in the feeling of satan pushing that “you aren’t good enough for this person” bruise. The issue is not with me, it is a personal thing that really I have no part of.
I still love this person and her family, but what she is walking through is between her and God. Exodus 14:14 “The Lord will fight your battle. You simply have to be silent.” I choose silence.
Remember Life Before CellPhones?
Not my circus, not my monkey type of thing. I’m beginning to remember what it was like to not be available to the world 24/7 (thanks to cell phones). I don’t really care what people think of me (thanks to social media). It just is what it is. I keep my phone ringer on vibrate. I’m going to delete the apps on my phone. When I do get on social media, it will be Jesus or blog related or to ask a question.
Perspective. I’m gaining perspective. This is a good thing and I hope that my children hold onto that and do not become a slave to cells or social media. If we read the Word more than we scrolled…what would our lives look like?
9 Passion for your house has consumed me,
and the insults of those who insult you have fallen on me.
10 When I weep and fast,
they scoff at me.
11 When I dress in burlap to show sorrow,
they make fun of me.
12 I am the favorite topic of town gossip,
and all the drunks sing about me.
13 But I keep praying to you, Lord,
hoping this time you will show me favor.
In your unfailing love, O God,
answer my prayer with your sure salvation.
14 Rescue me from the mud;
don’t let me sink any deeper!
Save me from those who hate me,
and pull me from these deep waters.
15 Don’t let the floods overwhelm me,
or the deep waters swallow me,
or the pit of death devour me.
16 Answer my prayers, O Lord,
for your unfailing love is wonderful.
Take care of me,
for your mercy is so plentiful.
17 Don’t hide from your servant;
answer me quickly, for I am in deep trouble!
18 Come and redeem me;
free me from my enemies.
He does answer my prayers, just sometimes not the way in which I would want Him to answer. That is hard for me. I see the “blinder” version of my life. While He is in a helicopter and He sees from beginning to end. May I learn the art of trusting and obeying?
19 You know of my shame, scorn, and disgrace.
You see all that my enemies are doing.
20 Their insults have broken my heart,
and I am in despair.
If only one person would show some pity;
if only one would turn and comfort me.
21 But instead, they give me poison for food;
they offer me sour wine for my thirst.
22 Let the bountiful table set before them become a snare
and their prosperity become a trap.
23 Let their eyes go blind so they cannot see,
and make their bodies shake continually.
24 Pour out your fury on them;
consume them with your burning anger.
25 Let their homes become desolate
and their tents be deserted.
26 To the one you have punished, they add insult to injury;
they add to the pain of those you have hurt.
27 Pile their sins up high,
and don’t let them go free.
28 Erase their names from the Book of Life;
don’t let them be counted among the righteous.
29 I am suffering and in pain.
Rescue me, O God, by your saving power.
30 Then I will praise God’s name with singing,
and I will honor him with thanksgiving.
31 For this will please the Lord more than sacrificing cattle,
more than presenting a bull with its horns and hooves.
32 The humble will see their God at work and be glad.
Let all who seek God’s help be encouraged.
33 For the Lord hears the cries of the needy;
he does not despise his imprisoned people.
34 Praise him, O heaven and earth,
the seas and all that move in them.
35 For God will save Jerusalem
and rebuild the towns of Judah.
His people will live there
and settle in their own land.
36 The descendants of those who obey him will inherit the land,
and those who love him will live there in safety.