The second part of verse 2 in Psalm 71 has struck a chord in me. It directly speaks to a situation I am currently in.
1 O Lord, I have come to you for protection;
don’t let me be disgraced.
2 Save me and rescue me,
for you do what is right.
Turn your ear to listen to me,
and set me free.
3 Be my rock of safety
where I can always hide.
Give the order to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.
4 My God, rescue me from the power of the wicked,
from the clutches of cruel oppressors.
5 O Lord, you alone are my hope.
I’ve trusted you, O Lord, from childhood.
6 Yes, you have been with me from birth;
from my mother’s womb you have cared for me.
No wonder I am always praising you!
“Turn your ear to me and set me free.” Oh, Lord, to be set free. I have been tormented for over 30 years. There has been an ongoing memory for as long as I can remember. Yet, my memory is stagnant. I know that it is real and validated because I have asked other people who would have known. Also, I have talked to many therapists. Yet, it remains at a point where it does not move. I have no clarity.
It is to the point where I would go and see a hypnotist help me remember because I am desperate. Now, will I ever do that…no? I believe that is against Scripture and I do not want to go against God. Yet, I do want to close my eyes and see the face. I don’t need details of the event because that will not help me. Honestly, I just want peace. I have it to a degree but then again, I don’t have it.
Lord, turn your ear to me and set me free!!!!!!!!!! Either allow these memories to flood me or give me contentment to let it go. Oh, and if You see fit to put my crystals back in place, I’d appreciate that too! He does say to be prayerful in all things. 🙂
7 My life is an example to many,
because you have been my strength and protection.
8 That is why I can never stop praising you;
I declare your glory all day long.
9 And now, in my old age, don’t set me aside.
Don’t abandon me when my strength is failing.
10 For my enemies are whispering against me.
They are plotting together to kill me.
11 They say, “God has abandoned him.
Let’s go and get him,
for no one will help him now.”
12 O God, don’t stay away.
My God, please hurry to help me.
13 Bring disgrace and destruction on my accusers.
Humiliate and shame those who want to harm me.
14 But I will keep on hoping for your help;
I will praise you more and more.
15 I will tell everyone about your righteousness.
All day long I will proclaim your saving power,
though I am not skilled with words.
16 I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign Lord.
I will tell everyone that you alone are just.
17 O God, you have taught me from my earliest childhood,
and I constantly tell others about the wonderful things you do.
18 Now that I am old and gray,
do not abandon me, O God.
Let me proclaim your power to this new generation,
your mighty miracles to all who come after me.
19 Your righteousness, O God, reaches to the highest heavens.
You have done such wonderful things.
Who can compare with you, O God?
20 You have allowed me to suffer much hardship,
but you will restore me to life again
and lift me up from the depths of the earth.
21 You will restore me to even greater honor
and comfort me once again.
Yes, I have suffered hardships. In the middle of them, I could see no way out. Now, on the other side of the rainbow with many of those hardships, I can see where God moved and grooved. I just had to get out of the way. Give up. Stop controlling every aspect of these issues.
If I would yield to the first sign of trouble, God could move more fluidly throughout all these issues. Yet, I hang on. Much like a leech that is stuck to someone’s body after they took a swim in a lake or pond. One day, I will learn. Hopefully, sooner rather than later.
22 Then I will praise you with music on the harp,
because you are faithful to your promises, O my God.
I will sing praises to you with a lyre,
O Holy One of Israel.
23 I will shout for joy and sing your praises,
for you have ransomed me.
24 I will tell about your righteous deeds
all day long,
for everyone who tried to hurt me
has been shamed and humiliated.