What is and is Not in My Control

What is and is Not in My Control. I am a work in progress. Without hesitation, I can tell you that trying to control everything is 99.9% of my problem. Well, that and lack of trusting anyone…maybe that goes hand in hand, I don’t know. It’s a problem. I know that, get it, and respect it. There is a problem, and I am it.

What is IN My Control

• my self-care
  • I get my hair done
  • Massages
  • Tattoos
  • Alone time at night
  • Reading
• asking for help
  • Reaching out to family
  • Communicating with Bart and being vulnerable
  • Therapy
• my decision
• the friends I have
  • I don’t do this one well
• my actions
  • I have apologized to those I need to
  • Forgiven most people, I need to
  • The Lord has made me HYPER aware
• my boundaries
  • Hahahahaha
• my thoughts
  • Oohhh…
• my attitude
  • Well…
• my words
  • Uhmmm…
• what I say
  • Learning how to use them
  • Learning how to RESTRAIN from using them
  • Work in progress

What is OUT of My Control

• who likes me
• past mistakes
• other’s feelings
• what others think
• other’s apologizing to me
• other’s actions
• what other people believe
• weather
• who loves me
• other people’s time
• someone else’s distraction

What is on Your List?

My struggle in the “out of my control” list is who likes me (why does this bother me so badly), past mistakes (I can’t forget), what others think of me, others’ actions, what other people believe, and who loves me. Those are my Achilles heel problems. What is on your list?