When love keeps showing up in the hardest season There are some things you do not fully understand until you watch someone live them. Strength is one of those things. I used to think strength had a certain look. Maybe steady. Possibly calm. Maybe confident. Or maybe someone who knows exactly what to do and… Continue reading The Strength I Saw in My Mom
Category: Grief and Loss
This category are posts about grief, loss, anticipatory grief, parent loss, suicide loss, complicated emotions, faith, memory, love, and learning to keep breathing through the ache of goodbye. Sometimes, breathing is the hard part but keep on moving forward.
Watching Him Slip Away
he continued grief of losing Daddy before goodbye ever fully came There are losses that happen all at once. Then there are losses that happen slowly. The kind where someone you love is still here, but pieces of what you have always known begin to feel different. Their strength changes or their energy changes. Then… Continue reading Watching Him Slip Away
When the House Feels Different
The ache of changed spaces There is something about grief that changes a house and then that is when the house feels different. The walls are the same.And the furniture is the same.The rooms are still where they have always been. Yet everything feels different. A home can hold so much life inside it. The… Continue reading When the House Feels Different
The Ordinary Things I Miss Already
How grief lives in everyday moments Grief is not always loud. Sometimes it does not show up in the big, obvious moments. It can slip in quietly, through the ordinary things. A chair or a cup. It could be a room or a habit. A sound you did not realize mattered so much until it… Continue reading The Ordinary Things I Miss Already
Where I Am With God Right Now
Where I Am With God Right Now. Holding faith when it doesn’t feel steady If I’m being honest, my faith doesn’t feel neat right now. It’s not wrapped up in certainty or clarity or strong, confident words. It feels quieter than that and sometimes heavier than that. There are moments where I know God is… Continue reading Where I Am With God Right Now
The Guilt No One Warns You About
The Guilt No One Warns You About and when love never feels like enough. No one really prepares you for this part. You expect the sadness, the worry, and even expect the exhaustion. However, the guilt, that part catches you off guard. It shows up quietly at first. In the small thoughts like “I should… Continue reading The Guilt No One Warns You About
What I Haven’t Said Out Loud Yet
What I Haven’t Said Out Loud Yet The moment everything shifted. I don’t know if there was one exact moment. Honestly, I wish I could point to a day, a sentence, something clear and defined but it wasn’t like that. It was quieter and subtle at first and easy to dismiss if I wanted to.… Continue reading What I Haven’t Said Out Loud Yet
The Grief That Comes Before the Goodbye
The Grief That Comes Before the Goodbye There is a kind of grief that no one really prepares you for. Learning to hold what hasn’t fully happened because nothing has “officially” been lost. They are still here. You can still see them. Still talk to them. And still sit in the same room. Yet something… Continue reading The Grief That Comes Before the Goodbye
When Your Parent Starts to Need You
When Your Parent Starts to Need You When Your Parent Starts to Need You and the moment roles begin to shift, there is a moment that doesn’t announce itself. There are no warning, no conversation and no clear line in the sand. Just a quiet realization that something has changed. It might be the first… Continue reading When Your Parent Starts to Need You
The Real Truth About Death and Grief
A note from Brandi:This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses grief, sibling loss, guilt, faith, and healing after the death of a loved one. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, or a substitute for professional… Continue reading The Real Truth About Death and Grief
The Things You Need to Know About Nana
A note from Brandi:This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses grief, grandmother loss, missing a loved one, regret, gratitude, and healing after loss. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, or a substitute for professional care.… Continue reading The Things You Need to Know About Nana