In What Would Happen if She Found Out, my guest blogger talks about what would happen if the people she loved most knew the truth?
What Would Happen if She Found Out
That I was more different than she had ever thought
That I was the one thing she couldn’t tolerate
Would she kick me out
Or would she hate me
Would she quit loving me
I would love to say no
But in reality, the answer is yes
Yes, she would do all three
Go To Hell
I’ve been told several times growing up that it’s wrong
If you think that way, you go to Hell
If you act that way, you go to Hell
So, of course, I didn’t want to admit that I am what I am
I didn’t want anyone to know my preference
Because I myself ignored it, hoping it would go away
Yet here I am at the age I am realizing really, for the first time
What I am and which people I like
And I’m worried about her reaction if she were ever to find out.
What I Have Been Told
Growing up, I’ve been told that she would rather DIE than have a child like me
Well, a child who likes a person of the same gender
I was told that she would rather stay in the dark than be told
So I’m going to respect her wishes
And not telling her
I’ll just let her die thinking she had at least one semi-normal child
Sure it’s a lie, but at least she’ll be happy
It’s the least I can do
She deserves to be happy
And I deserve to have a standing relationship
with at least one member of my family
2 thoughts on “What Would Happen if She Found Out”
This makes me very sad and to be honest angry. I definitely have thoughts on religion, but that’s for another day! 🙂 Hope you are doing well and taking care.
Anger is secondary to fear and/or sadness. When you feel that emotion, stop and think “what am I afraid of” or “why am I sad about this?” It helps unmuddy the waters, so to speak. I have a lot of thoughts on religion, as a whole. I do not have a “set” religion. What I have is a relationship with Jesus. Honestly, Jesus + Nothing = Everything! Thank you for your input. I hope you and your family are well!
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