A note from Brandi:
This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses identity, shame, faith, emotional distress, not feeling okay, and the pain of feeling different or rejected. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, crisis care, or a substitute for professional support. If you are in crisis, thinking about suicide, at risk of hurting yourself, or in immediate danger, call 911, call or text 988, or go to your nearest emergency room. LGBTQ youth and young adults can also connect with The Trevor Project for support.
I Am Broken
I am broken
And I am not normal
I am not who I want to be
Instead, I am the one thing I have been raised to not be
The one thing that will make me lose people close to me
I am not who my parents expected me to be
Also, I am disappointed in their eyes
I am a disappointment in my own eyes
Struggling
I know it is wrong
Sadly, I know its not meant to be that way
I have not chosen to feel this way
It just happened
I have actively fought it
Honestly, I would rather not acknowledge it than admit to it
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want to act on it
Normal
All I want is to be normal
To be who I was meant to be
Not who I have become
By choice or not
I hate myself for my feelings
I would rather just ignore it
Then deal with it
I am not normal
Sadly, I am broken
I AM NOT OKAY.
But one day I will be.
What God Says
God says He loves us. He sent His son to die on the cross for us. When we come to Christ, He throws our sins as far as the East is from the West. Also, He says that Satan is the Prince of the Earth. He comes to steal, kill, and destroy us all. We have free will and it is a giant butthole. God will not supersede free will, though He can at any moment. He loves us and that is enough! This anonymous guest blogger shows such vulnerability and courage in writing and submitting this in order to help others.
Guest Post Disclaimer:
Guest posts reflect the personal views and lived experiences of the writer. They do not necessarily represent clinical advice, therapy, crisis care, or the views of Barefoot Faith Journey or Circle of Hope Counseling Services. Blog content is educational and inspirational only and does not create a therapist-client relationship.
If you are in crisis: Please call 911, call or text 988, or go to your nearest emergency room. This blog is not monitored for crisis support. You are worthy of immediate care.
