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What Do You Want To Do?

This is a question that I would pose to my ladies when I worked as the inpatient residential therapist, “What do you want to do when you grow up?”. They would come to our facility, at their lowest of lows, broken with little hope. My job was to give them the hard core facts but to lace it with beauty and hope.

When I asked this question (with ladies between the ages of 18 and 70), they would just look at me with wide eyes. For a moment, there was a world that they could become anything they wanted to be. Some ladies wanted to be moms, others wanted to work in the field of addiction, some wanted to be therapists, nurses, work in retail, the answers varied from person to person.

Facts

Here is a fact that most people don’t like. Every single person is one bad decision away from complete devastation in their lives. Everyone. The ladies I worked with, they made that decision and their lives were turned upside down and inside out. Here is the beauty. There is ALWAYS hope. Tomorrow is fresh and new. Each person can take the brokenness of life and create something beautiful out of it.

What are the pieces of your life that are broken? Is there something, out of that brokenness, that you can create and make something beautiful out of it? If you see a pitcher…like to hold water. The job of that pitcher is to hold liquid for drinks, possible put flowers in it but it has a purpose, right?

What happens when there is a crack in that pitcher or if the handle broke off of it or even if someone dropped it and it shattered all over the floor. Typically, one would sweep up the shards of glass and throw it away. What if…just what if, you took the shards and brokenness and did something besides throw it away.

What if you took a canvas, slathered it with glue and created a beautiful mosaic with those broken pieces and you hung up that creation in your house. That pitcher will no longer hold water but the beauty of the sun shining on the different colors of glass will be stunning. You took what was broken and created beauty out of it.

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Promised Suicide

TRIGGERING POST In the story of Promised Suicide, a young woman shares how the generational curse has affected her life. Promised Suicide is a very personal story. It is heartbreaking what she has endured and continues to endure the battle of her mind. Tomorrow, she will talk about where she is now in life and how her beginning was trying to dictate her future, but then there was God.

As a child:

I always promised myself that I would never be like you,

Never leave my family feeling unloved,

I would never drink to be drunk,

Never medicate myself,

I would never lay in the bed for weeks at a time,

Never do anything to harm myself.

And yet, as an adult:

I’ve made everyone I love feel hated,

Drunk because I’m sad,

I’ve thought about taking too many of my own pills,

Laid in the bed for weeks at a time,

I’ve cut and carved things into my skin.

As a child:

I didn’t realize what it was like to feel Alone, Unloved, Insignificant,

All I knew was that my mother didn’t care,

My mother hated me,

She didn’t want to spend time with me.

My mother hated herself,

And most of all, my mother wanted to die.

As an adult:

I don’t care,

In fact, I hate myself,

I don’t want to spend time with anyone,

I wanted to die.

All because I feel Unlovable, Alone, and Insignificant.

I wonder if there is any connection between what I saw as a child and why I am the way I am.

Did I learn to handle life the way I have?

I mean, it would be way easier for me to blame you.

You were the one that raised me,

Or was it the other way around?

What did you expect out of me when you let me take care of you.

Did you expect me to be normal; After all the things I’ve been through?

After flushing away the last pills, you didn’t take,

Picking up the blades you tried to use to take your life away,

After scrubbing your blood off of the floor and then putting everything back in place.

But no, I can’t blame this on you. I chose to do it too,

I chose to pick up that knife

Chose to make the plan

I am responsible for my actions

Resources

If you or someone you know is being abused, PLEASE reach out.

ChildHelp Hotline

National Domestic Violence Hotline

Suicide Prevention Lifeline

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