When the Silence is Deafening When silence becomes deafening, emotions can shift from moment to moment. Some days, it feels like they change by the minute. Lately, the silence has been so loud that I can’t hear myself think. It’s like when my aunt can’t smell anything because the noise around her is too overwhelming—strange,… Continue reading When the Silence is Deafening
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In the Still of the Night The Monster Comes to Play
The Monster in the Silence I love the time of day when I can go upstairs and just be. For the day, I am done. I am done with work, cooking, cleaning, putting out fires, phone calls, texts, and all the other things that demand my attention. My stuff, a bottle of water, and my… Continue reading In the Still of the Night The Monster Comes to Play
The Ghost from Juneteenth Past
The Ghost from Juneteenth Past Trigger warning If you or someone you know has struggled with suicidal ideations or attempts, please refrain from reading this content. Seek help! "Today, “988” is the three-digit, nationwide phone number to connect directly to the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. By calling or texting 988, you’ll connect with mental… Continue reading The Ghost from Juneteenth Past
LA Came in Like a Tornado
LA Came in Like a Tornado Ten years ago, I met a brassy blond girl at a ballpark. She had a crass mouth and a nasty smoking habit. She was loud and obnoxious. A person people moved away from when they saw her. She did not dress the part, talk the part, and certainly did… Continue reading LA Came in Like a Tornado
Open Letter to A Brother Who Left This World Too Soon
A note from Brandi:This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses grief, sibling loss, cancer, regret, and faith. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, or a substitute for professional care. Open Letter to A Brother Who… Continue reading Open Letter to A Brother Who Left This World Too Soon
The Real Truth About Death and Grief
A note from Brandi:This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses grief, sibling loss, guilt, faith, and healing after the death of a loved one. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, or a substitute for professional… Continue reading The Real Truth About Death and Grief
The Things You Need to Know About Nana
A note from Brandi:This guest post is shared with permission and reflects the personal experience and perspective of the writer. It discusses grief, grandmother loss, missing a loved one, regret, gratitude, and healing after loss. It is offered for awareness, encouragement, and education. It is not therapy, clinical advice, or a substitute for professional care.… Continue reading The Things You Need to Know About Nana
I Should Have Known
I Should Have Known I should have known something wasn’t right When you told me you loved me for the first time And I didn’t say it back I should have known something was up. When I couldn’t stand the fact that you wrote me love letters Or when you posted love stuff… Continue reading I Should Have Known
Depression is Gray and Black
Depression is Gray and Black Depression Is a dark and twisty place It's when your inner thoughts are gray and black There is no light There is no white Just gray or black The gray is sad but bearable thoughts This is where you look back at what's wrong grieving the way you… Continue reading Depression is Gray and Black
The Proposal
The Proposal Now it is time to talk about The Proposal. After about two years, the man I was dating proposed to me at the park with no people around because I believed that proposals should be private. I had pushed so hard to be engaged because I wanted to be married, and I… Continue reading The Proposal
How It Began
This is Something That is Considerably Difficult for Me to Write This is How It Began. I still have not been able to let it go after all these years. I feel like now is the time to write. From my perspective, this is what my experiences were like when I was dating someone. I… Continue reading How It Began
Misery Loves Company
Misery Loves Company Misery loves company they say But is it the misery the person wants to share Or are they looking to someone for help? But instead, bring them down too Is the misery more infectious than the need for help? Or does the person just not want it enough Personally, I think I… Continue reading Misery Loves Company
Hurt People Hurt People
Hurt People Hurt People A phrase my mom has always said is Hurt People Hurt People. That is an accurate phrase. I always thought that I was your favorite person. You would make time to come down and see me. You brought me books and movies. We would go to the movies and have the… Continue reading Hurt People Hurt People
Happy Without You
The Pain of Losing a Friendship This young lady shares her feelings about losing a special friendship in Happy Without You. Friendships come and go like the ebbs and flows of the ocean. That is what I tell so many people because it puts in perspective that the things of this Earth are not forever.… Continue reading Happy Without You
You are not Hidden
You are not Hidden That phrase. You are not Hidden. It stirs in my soul. There are days when I feel like He doesn't see me. He doesn't care that He doesn't hear my prayers. I am sure other people think that, but I listened to this song. He does hear me. When I… Continue reading You are not Hidden
Postpartum Depression and Suicide
Postpartum Depression and Suicide Postpartum Depression and Suicide are real things. The girls' first 14 months of life were traumatizing for me as their mom. They had several health issues such as Intrauterine Growth Restriction, Small For Gestational Age, Failure To Thrive, and many other things. On the day of my 30th birthday, things… Continue reading Postpartum Depression and Suicide
Where to Start
Where to Start Where to Start? I guess I will tell the story of my darkest time yet most significant recovery. I should start at the beginning. My husband and I struggled with infertility for years. After testing, we were told that seeing a fertility specialist was our only option for having our children. We… Continue reading Where to Start
I Will Never Be the Same
Continued Story My sweet friend is continuing to write her story. She is showing so much of herself each time she writes. In I Will Never Be the Same, she talks about disclosing to a family member. This family member did the unthinkable. They chose the abuser over the young girl. I Don’t Know… Continue reading I Will Never Be the Same
Choices that I Made
"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7 The Lord chose me and His choices are for me to live! Life-Changing Events Being a young parent is hard. Tremendously hard. It changes you when you have complicated pregnancies and one delivery that almost loses your child. The lack of… Continue reading Choices that I Made
Struggling with Depression and Anxiety at a Young Age
Struggling with Depression and Anxiety at a Young Age I have struggled with Depression and Anxiety a Young Age since I was young. My parents divorced when I was two and a half years old. Then both parents remarried. My mom had two other daughters with my stepfather. He was mentally and physically abusive to… Continue reading Struggling with Depression and Anxiety at a Young Age