Tag: faith journey

Faith Journey, Medical, Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome

Even When There Was No Reason for Hope

Brandi C

Even When There Was No Reason for Hope

There’s something about this verse that stops me in my tracks. Even when there was no reason for hope… Abraham kept hoping. Why? Because God had said. I was told there was no hope in my son living, however, Even When There Was No Reason for Hope.

This isn’t blind optimism. This isn’t wishful thinking. This is faith—the gritty, hold-on-tight, eyes-on-God kind of faith. The kind that says, “I believe You, Lord,” even when everything around says it’s impossible.

This verse became my anchor, my theme, when my son was diagnosed with Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome (OMS). In the face of uncertainty, fear, and countless questions, this Scripture reminded me to hold on—to keep hoping. Not because circumstances gave me a reason, but because God had spoken promises over my child’s life, and I clung to them with everything I had.

How often do we face situations that seem hopeless? A diagnosis. A broken relationship. A shattered dream. The temptation is to let go. To stop believing. To shrink our prayers.

But Abraham’s story reminds us: when God speaks a promise, we can stand on it. Even if we don’t see it. Even when time drags on. Even when our hope feels foolish. If God said it, that’s enough.

Maybe today you’re in a season where hope feels far away. Let Abraham’s faith encourage you. Keep hoping—not because circumstances make sense, but because your God is faithful.

What He says, He will do.
Even when there’s no reason for hope—keep hoping anyway.

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Integrity

Faith Journey, Medical, Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome

The Shaking Doesn’t Stop

Brandi C

The Shaking Doesn’t Stop

The Shaking Doesn’t Stop

The Second ER – Misdiagnosis #2

We made arrangements for the kids, packed bags, and headed 2.5 hours to Nashville. We arrived at Vanderbilt Children’s Hospital in the middle of the night. In the end, The Shaking Doesn’t Stop.

They admitted us briefly but said no MRI could be done until morning.

They ran bloodwork and later completed an MRI. I asked for a spinal tap or spinal MRI—they declined. “Not necessary,” they said.

While we waited, new symptoms began to show up. H stiffened his legs like a toy soldier. He shook all over. He couldn’t sit up without help.

The MRI showed nothing. We were told it was Acute Cerebellitis Ataxia, likely caused by a virus—even though he had never been sick.

“Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them…”
— James 5:14a (NIV)

We were told we must have just not noticed when he was sick. I was stunned.

He is three.
A blind, deaf, mute would know when a three-year-old is sick.

We were told to return if he had a grand mal seizure or if we feared for his life.

Discharged – But Not Done

What I’ll never forget is how flippantly the doctors treated us—how dismissive they were. But what I will remember even more clearly is the nurse who looked me in the eyes and said:

“You don’t have to leave. I can’t believe they’re discharging you, given the state he’s in.”

We knew then—we needed to keep pushing.

“Let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.”
— Galatians 6:9 (ESV)

The Third ER – Misdiagnosis #3

Still unsettled, I packed up again and drove 3.5 hours to Louisville. I wanted one thing: confirmation.

If two doctors gave me the same diagnosis, I’d accept it and wait.

Big Daddy stayed home with the others. I was hopeful that this time, we’d get real answers.

But even when the world throws labels and shrugs its shoulders, a mother’s gut—and the Holy Spirit—won’t be quieted.

Heartbeat Moment: When the Shaking Begins

That June evening, I had watched H giggle and shout with joy at a ball game. One day later, I watched him crumble under the weight of something we couldn’t name. But in between the popcorn and the panic, I felt something deeper growing—a fire, a knowing.

We weren’t just walking through a medical crisis.

We were walking through holy ground.

And even when we didn’t know the name of what we were fighting,
God did.

“Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear.”
— Isaiah 65:24 (NIV)

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Courage in EnCOURAGE

Faith Journey, Medical, Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome

Before the Shaking Began

Brandi C

before the shaking began

A Sweet Night at the Ball Field

On this day in 2017, Before the Shaking Began, I had been with my Lady, and I knew her family was coming into town. I wanted to give them time together, so I took all my kids to one of my son’s baseball games. It was a warm evening, the kind where summer storms tease the horizon but never quite make it to the field. The game was something everyone could enjoy, and I looked forward to the joy of watching my kids just be kids.

H hadn’t been to a baseball game since the previous summer. Now that he was a little older—he had turned three that February—I knew he’d enjoy it even more.

And oh, he did.

He absolutely charmed everyone around us. Then, he shamelessly ate their popcorn and nachos with zero hesitation. He cheered loudly, with unfiltered excitement. He was the comic relief for everyone near us, and he loved every single minute of it.

“A cheerful heart is good medicine…”
— Proverbs 17:22a (NIV)

For that moment, everything was sweet and simple. That evening is forever etched in my memory as one of the last “normal” moments we had for a long time.

The Next Day: A Shift in the Air

The conversation from earlier that day—the kind you tuck away in the back of your mind—didn’t resurface until June 7. That was the day the world stopped turning for our family.

H was highly emotional that morning. He was doing things he shouldn’t have been doing, getting in trouble more than usual. His older brothers—sweet and patient—took him into their room to play Legos while I caught up on paperwork and phone calls.

I could hear H yelling at the boys, and I could also hear them giving in. Over and over again. I heard my oldest say, “Stop shaking. You’re not in trouble. Here, take the Lego… stop shaking.”

Stop shaking.

When H got excited or upset, he would sometimes shake his arms and legs. I assumed this was more of the same. I figured his brothers were tired of managing him and needed a break, so I called him back into the dining room.

He screamed the whole walk down the hallway. Honestly, he wanted to stay with the big boys. He cried, shook, and screamed some more. I put him in time out on the step. He continued crying—louder now—and shaking from head to toe.

I told him he needed to stop and that once he did, he could get up. Eventually, he stopped. He got up and went to play with his toys.

The Nap That Changed Everything

Lunchtime came and went. H went down for his usual nap. He had been napping since he moved in with us at 21 months old. That day was no different—he slept until about 4 p.m. My oldest son went to get him up, as he often did. He usually carried H downstairs and set him in my lap.

That moment was no different, either. H snuggled into me, and we talked about his dreams—he had dreamed about his pillow. I hugged him tight and said, “Okay, time to potty, buddy. Can you hand me your underwear?”

It was only about ten steps away.

I stood him up…

He wobbled and he stumbled.

And then… he fell.

He cried out, terrified. My heart dropped.

One of the boys quietly mentioned that the same thing had happened the day before—after a nap—but it quickly resolved, and no one thought to tell me. I brushed off the panic and told myself maybe his legs were just asleep. I snuggled him and rubbed his legs.

After a few minutes, I stood him up again.

He fell over. There was no moment where he could stand up. He couldn’t balance or walk.

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.”
— Psalm 56:3 (ESV)

The First ER Visit – Misdiagnosis #1

I gathered our things and called Big Daddy: “You need to meet us at the ER. Something’s wrong. H can’t walk.” I also called my oldest sister—H’s grandmother—and asked her to meet us there.

On the 30-minute drive, H kept repeating: “My legs won’t stop shaking.”

It scared him.
It scared me.

At the hospital, they did a CT scan. It came back normal. They drew blood—without gloves, mind you—and began tossing around terrifying words like Muscular Dystrophy and Cerebral Palsy. Then they pivoted, decided maybe it was Strep, even though he tested negative. They gave us Amoxicillin and sent us home.

We left that hospital with a terrifying truth:
Our baby couldn’t walk.

Friends Who Move Mountains

On the drive home, I started making calls. I called a friend whose daughter had a rare illness and ended up paralyzed when she was little. She is a pit bull—and I love that about her. She pulled strings and got us in touch with a brilliant neurologist. I also called another friend who works in the neurology world. They both said the same thing:

“Get that baby to Vandy. Don’t wait. Don’t let the grass grow under your feet.”

And that’s exactly what we did.

To be continued…

“The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
— Deuteronomy 31:8 (NIV)

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

How to Live Life

Faith Journey, Medical, Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome

The Prophecy and The Call

Brandi C

The Prophecy and The Call

The Prophecy and The Call

In December, we found ourselves at church, preparing for worship. After several months of church hunting, we had settled on one that we had initially been hesitant to visit. We knew the pastor and his wife, along with a few families, but we hadn’t been attending for long. It felt different from the churches we were used to. What we weren’t prepared for were the The Prophecy and The Call.

People Watching

Before the service began, the pastor called up a man to give a “word” to some members of the congregation. We had learned that this practice was somewhat common, but it was still unusual for our family. We sat, watching this man pace in front of the congregation.

I’m naturally a people-watcher, and one thing that caught my attention was that the man never opened his eyes as he paced and spoke. He kept touching the inside of his hands, and it was clear that he felt uncomfortable but was determined to be obedient. He shared that he had received a word from the Lord and wanted to make sure it wasn’t just his own thoughts. Through sleepless nights, he confirmed it was from God, and he knew he had to obey.

The Word

The man said that he had a word for someone in the congregation. As he continued pacing, I felt a strange shift in the atmosphere. When he stopped directly in front of Big Daddy, I felt like the air was sucked out of the room. He asked Big Daddy to stand up, and I looked to the altar. Our pastor smiled at me and gave a reassuring nod, signaling that everything was okay.

The Man

The man, whom we had never met before, told Big Daddy to hold onto his hand. Big Daddy is not a small man—his hands are enormous, so when he stood, he commanded attention. The man then said, “Hold on. Hold on tight to the rope and do not let go. Trust and hold on tight.” I felt a wave of energy flow through me, and tears streamed down my face. I don’t often cry, but in that moment, I knew we were about to embark on something challenging.

The Beginning of 2017

As the year started, life seemed to spiral. My father had quadruple bypass surgery. Then, my niece was sentenced to prison, and my nephew was close behind her. My daughter went to military school due to behavioral issues, and we faced a devastating family situation involving another baby. Add onto that, my oldest daughter called off her engagement, lost her job, and we were fighting insurance companies over my son’s surgery. On top of all that, my Lady got sick. The weight of it all felt unbearable, but the reminder to “hold on” stayed with us.

Even More Challenges

Big Daddy and I worked hard to navigate a difficult family situation. We did everything we could, but ultimately, it was out of our hands. I confided in a friend, and she told me to “hold onto hope.” She also shared that the Hebrew meaning of “hope” is “rope,” so we should hold onto the rope. I paused, texted her back, and asked who had told her that. She said it was a word from the Lord for me. I asked if she knew the man from church who had said the same thing, and she didn’t. That was the second time we had heard the message to “hold on.”

The Call

Then, on Tuesday morning, June 6, 2017, my sister called me. She rarely calls on a Tuesday, so I knew something was up. When I asked if everything was okay, she told me she had received an odd text from a former neighbor—a woman she used to walk with. This woman said that the Lord had placed my name on her heart and that she was praying for me. I had never met this woman, nor had I ever spoken to her, and I found it unsettling. My sister urged me to take it as a blessing, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was about to happen. It was about 4:30 pm, that afternoon, that we knew something was wrong.

Daddy’s Love

After my child became sick, I spent almost two weeks in the hospital with him. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, and emotionally drained. The doctors had told me a thousand things, none of which were good. One day, my sister—H’s “Mamaw”—came to give me a break. She handed me a gift from my father—a flat pillow, my grandmother’s quilt, and a message from my dad. That gift, along with the constant reminders to “hold on,” has stayed with me. It reminds me that both my heavenly Father and my earthly father love me and that everything will be okay.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

A Diagnosis Does Not Define You

Faith Journey, Medical, Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome

Faith Through the Fog: Our Journey with OMS, Eight Years Later

Brandi C

faith through the fog our journey with oms, eight years later

Faith Through the Fog: Our Journey with OMS, Eight Years Later

In the month of June, I’m leaning into something I’ve long put off—sharing more of our story, the unfiltered version. Eight years ago, our lives were flipped upside down when our youngest son was diagnosed with Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome (OMS), a rare and often misunderstood neurological disorder.

It’s a journey that has left a permanent mark on our family, especially on me as a mother—and as a woman of faith. This summer, I’m pulling back the curtain. Not for sympathy, not for shock value, but to honor my son’s story… and to tell mine.

Honoring a Warrior: My Son’s Story

Lord willing, I hope to get my son to help me tell his side—his memories, his moments, and what he understands of it all, eight years later. He remembers some things with a sharp clarity, and others, he doesn’t recall at all. That alone is hard for my mama heart to sit with.

But I believe there’s healing in the telling. There’s something holy about giving space to the hard, and allowing our kids—especially those who’ve been through trauma—to have a voice. This month, I want to hold space for him. And for me, too.

A Mother’s Faith in the Middle of the Fire

This journey changed me. It didn’t just impact our schedule or our parenting style.  OMS changed who I am. It reshaped how I see God, how I pray, how I walk through suffering, and how I love others who are also barely hanging on.

There’s a lot I still can’t fully unpack. This diagnosis came in like a wrecking ball—but so did the rest of my life at the time. It wasn’t just my son’s illness. It was everything else swirling around it: the weight of other children to care for, my own health, marital strain, and what I believe was a full-blown nervous breakdown that I didn’t have time to name.

And yet—through it all—God never left.

What Is Opsoclonus Myoclonus Syndrome (OMS)?

If you’ve never heard of OMS, you’re not alone. It’s an ultra-rare autoimmune neurological condition that often presents suddenly and without warning. It affects motor control, speech, behavior, and sometimes cognition. Most of all, it brings chaos and confusion—not just to the child, but to every person who loves them.

This month, I’ll be sharing more about what OMS is… and what it is not. There are so many misconceptions, and I believe awareness can be a bridge toward compassion. Toward better care. Toward understanding what families like ours really go through behind the scenes.

Why Now?

Why share this now, after eight years? Honestly, I don’t think I could have done this sooner. Even now, parts of this feel too fresh to touch. Some memories still sting like they happened yesterday. But I’m learning that healing doesn’t mean forgetting—it means finally making peace with what has been, and giving God permission to use it.

This month is about remembrance. It’s about grief. It’s about gratitude. And it’s about faith—real, raw, wrestling-in-the-dark kind of faith.

What to Expect This Month

  • Personal stories from the early days of our OMS journey

  • Reflections on how it shaped (and tested) my faith

  • Insights from my son, as he remembers his own story

  • Education and awareness about OMS for those who want to learn more

If you’ve ever felt like life hit you out of nowhere… if your faith has ever been shaken by a diagnosis, a trauma, or a season of survival—you’re not alone.

Walking Together

My hope is that this corner of the internet becomes a place where people feel seen. Where messy faith is still welcome. Where God’s presence is real, even when the path feels anything but clear.

Thank you for being here. For reading. For walking this with us. I pray that as I share this story, God uses it to minister to your heart in some way—even if your road looks completely different.

He is faithful. Even when it’s foggy, even when we’re broken, and even when we can’t see the way forward. He is still God.

Here’s to healing. And to the God who walks with us through the fire, not just on the other side of it.

I’d love to hear from you:

If you have questions about OMS, drop them in the comments or message me privately. If you’ve walked through a similar season of suffering or medical trauma, I see you. Let’s hold space for each other.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Not All Storms Disrupt

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, Faith Journey

5 Unexpected Ways Starting Over Can Make Your Life Better

Brandi C

5 Unexpected Ways Starting Over Can Make Your Life Better

5 Unexpected Ways Starting Over Can Make Your Life Better

Here are 5 Unexpected Ways Starting Over Can Make Your Life Better. After a rough start (and finish) to my day, I decided to just begin again. As I sat in my bed, crying, I felt the Lord impress upon me a simple but powerful truth: every moment offers the chance for a fresh start. No matter how difficult the day has been, we can always choose to reset.

Here are five simple but transformative ways to make life better, for yourself and those around you:

1. Hug Your Difficult Child

When emotions are high and patience is low, a hug can bridge the divide. Physical touch is powerful—it communicates love, security, and acceptance, even when words fail.

2. Give Encouragement, Even Through Gritted Teeth

Speaking life into others, especially when it’s hard, can transform both the giver and the receiver. Encouragement has the power to shift perspectives, soothe wounds, and inspire growth. Even if you don’t feel it in the moment, choose to lift up rather than tear down.

3. Pray Often

When frustration rises, turn to the One who knows you best. Prayer doesn’t have to be long or eloquent—it just has to be real. Whisper His name. Lay your burdens down. He listens, cares, and moves.

4. Smile More

A simple smile can shift the atmosphere of your home, your workplace, and your heart. Even on the hardest days, a smile—genuine or not—has the power to break tension and invite joy.

5. Begin Again

You are not bound by yesterday’s failures or today’s struggles. You can start over at any moment. A new book. Chapter 1. Page 1. The enemy wants you to believe you’re stuck, that it’s too late. But the truth?

It is NEVER too late to begin again.

Choose to Start Over

Do not feed into the lies of Satan.

You are NEVER too far gone.

And you are NEVER too old.

You are NEVER beyond redemption.

You will not regret starting over, trusting again, choosing joy, and leaning into the grace of God.

God. Is. Bigger.

Final Thoughts

On hard days, turn to Truth. Open your Bible. Let the Word of God speak louder than the noise of social media, comparison, and self-doubt. The world may highlight perfection, but the only perfect One is Jesus.

Cling to His promises, hold onto hope, and know that His mercies are new every morning. (Lamentations 3:22-23)

No matter where you are or what you’ve faced—begin again.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Preconceived Notions: More Than Meets the Eye

 

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

The Crimson Thread in Your Tapestry

Brandi C

The Crimson Thread in Your Tapestry

The Crimson Thread in Your Tapestry

The Crimson Thread in Your Tapestry

Over the course of life, there are moments when a crimson thread weaves itself into the beautiful tapestry that is being created. This thread represents the trials and struggles that seek to disrupt joy and peace. 1 Peter 5:8 reminds us to stay alert because challenges come in many forms, often attempting to shake faith and hope.

A wise person once shared that happiness is based on circumstances, but true joy comes from the Lord. As Psalm 30:5b states, “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” This perspective can transform how struggles are viewed—not as insurmountable obstacles, but as opportunities to lean into faith and trust.

The Battle Between Happiness and Joy

Understanding the difference between happiness and joy can bring clarity to difficult seasons. Happiness is fleeting and tied to external circumstances, while joy is rooted in the unchanging nature of God’s promises. Even in the darkest moments, joy remains available through faith, serving as an anchor in turbulent times.

Psalm 121:7-8 reassures, “The Lord keeps you from all harm and watches over your life. The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go both now and forever.” Even when circumstances seem overwhelming, He is present, protecting and guiding through the storm.

Holding On to Hope

Life brings unexpected challenges, and sometimes it feels as though the crimson thread is overpowering the tapestry. Yet, even in uncertainty, God is always working. The call to “hold on” is not just a suggestion but a lifeline. Romans 4:18-21 speaks of Abraham’s unwavering faith, reminding that hope is never in vain.

Encouragement often comes in unexpected ways—through Scripture, through others, or even through a simple yet profound message: “Hold on.” This message may be a direct reminder that faith and perseverance will lead to restoration and renewal.

The Unseen Hand at Work

Looking back on difficult seasons, it becomes evident that God was always present, weaving together a masterpiece from what once seemed broken. Job 38:11 states, “I said, ‘This far and no farther will you come. Here your proud waves must stop!’” There is comfort in knowing that no trial is beyond God’s control.

Though storms may rage and uncertainty may loom, the promise remains: “He will be very gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you” (Isaiah 30:19b). Ecclesiastes 3:11 reminds that “He has made everything beautiful in its time.” Trusting in His perfect timing brings peace, even when the full picture is not yet visible.

A Tapestry of Faith

Every struggle, every victory, every moment of doubt, and every renewal of faith contributes to the intricate design of life’s tapestry. No matter how overwhelming the crimson thread may seem, it is but one part of a much larger picture—one that God is crafting with love, purpose, and grace.

Faith reassures that even when the path is unclear, the One who holds the threads sees the masterpiece in its entirety. Trust in Him, hold on to hope, and find joy in the journey, knowing that He is always present, always faithful, and always good.

 

The Crimson Thread in Your Tapestry

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Not All Scars Can Be Seen

 

 

 

 

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

What Happens When Your Pitcher of Life Crashes

Brandi C

amor propio baby,

What Happens When Your Pitcher of Life Crashes

Life is like a glass pitcher from the 1960s—meant to hold lemonade, sun tea, or even flowers. From the moment we are born, we have a purpose, just as a pitcher is meant to hold liquid. As we grow, we fill that pitcher with our dreams, aspirations, and ideals. We pour into it our vision of the perfect career, the ideal family, the dream home, the car we long to drive, and the life we imagine for ourselves. Every hope and expectation fills the pitcher to the brim, reflecting the future we once envisioned. Here is a story of What Happens When Your Pitcher of Life Crashes.

But then, life happens. The pitcher slips from our hands, crashing to the floor, shattering into countless pieces. Our dreams scatter across the ground, and as we scramble to gather them, we cut ourselves on the shards of broken expectations. In that moment, we face a choice: sweep it all into the trash and discard our dreams, or painstakingly pick up the larger pieces and try to glue them back together.

Choosing the latter, we piece together our pitcher, carefully mending the cracks. To the naked eye, it may look almost whole again, a testament to our resilience. But as we begin to refill it with new dreams and experiences, the invisible fractures reveal themselves. Water seeps through the cracks, reminding us that no matter how hard we try, the pitcher will never hold liquid the way it once did.

This has been the story of my life. My dreams were grand—I wanted to be a veterinarian for farm animals, inspired by my father’s belief in my natural talent. I pursued that path, thinking it was the only way to make him proud. But in time, I realized he was proud of me simply for being his child. My true calling was to help people, though I didn’t have the words for it back then. It took 30 years for that dream to materialize.

I dreamed of a life on a farm, raising Angus cattle. Instead, I built a different kind of home. Marriage, too, took unexpected turns. He wanted one child; I wanted four. We compromised on three, ended up with five, and now we have seven. Parenting has been anything but perfect. I’ve made mistakes, but I’ve also learned the power of apologizing and acknowledging those missteps. I can’t undo the past, but I can ensure my children know they are loved, seen, and heard. I can’t force forgiveness, but I can model grace and understanding.

The dreams of my youth—riding a canary-yellow Harley, living in a spacious two-story house—evolved over time. I went from a sporty little car to a minivan, then an SUV. Our first home was a tiny 900-square-foot space, squeezing in seven people with a single bathroom. We moved several times before finally settling into a house we love—one we chose with our adult children in mind, a place where they would always feel welcome.

Is my family as close as I had envisioned? It depends on the season. Some relationships are stronger than others, and we all navigate misunderstandings and miscommunications. But we come together for holidays and gatherings, and I believe that, when it truly matters, we will show up for one another.

My pitcher will never hold water again. But rather than discard the broken pieces, I created something new. I took the shards—my pain, trauma, uncertainties, poor choices, regrets, and disappointments—and mourned the loss of what could have been. And then, God transformed those pieces into something beautiful. Like a mosaic, my life tells a different story than I once imagined, but it is still a masterpiece. Isaiah 61:3 speaks of beauty rising from ashes, and I have found that to be true. Even when life feels like it’s burning around me, when I take time for self-care, lean on those I trust, and embrace grace and forgiveness, I can see the beauty in the brokenness.

My story is still being written. My mosaic is still taking shape. And in its imperfection, it is more beautiful than I ever could have planned.

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

You Can Always Begin Again

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

Be Kind to Your Mind

Brandi C

circle of hope counseling services (5)

Be Kind to Your Mind

We often hear the phrase be kind to others, but how often do we practice kindness toward ourselves—especially our minds? The way we think, the words we speak to ourselves, and the care we give our mental well-being all matter. Your mind deserves kindness, too.

Life can be overwhelming, and our thoughts can easily become filled with worry, self-doubt, and negativity. But just as we nurture our bodies with food and rest, we must nurture our minds with grace, patience, and care. You are not your mistakes. You are not your struggles and you are worthy of peace.

So how do you show kindness to your mind?

  1. Speak to yourself with love. Replace self-criticism with encouragement. Instead of “I’m failing,” try “I’m learning.” Instead of “I’m not enough,” remind yourself “I am doing my best, and that is enough.”
  2. Take breaks without guilt. Rest is not a luxury—it’s a necessity. Your mind needs time to recharge, just like your body.
  3. Set boundaries. Protect your peace by limiting negativity, whether it’s toxic relationships, social media, or overworking yourself.
  4. Seek help when needed. There is strength in asking for support. Whether through prayer, therapy, or trusted friends, you don’t have to carry everything alone.
  5. Fill your mind with good things. Read, listen, and surround yourself with positivity. What you feed your mind shapes how you feel.

You are worthy of love, including the love you give yourself. So be kind to your mind. Give it rest. Give it grace. And remind yourself daily: you are doing better than you think.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Don’t Quit Just Do It

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

Be a Warrior, Not a Worrier

Brandi C

circle of hope counseling services (4)

Be a Warrior, Not a Worrier

Worry has a way of creeping into our minds, filling us with doubt, fear, and endless “what ifs.” It steals our joy, drains our energy, and keeps us stuck in cycles of anxiety. But what if, instead of being a worrier, you chose to be a warrior?

A warrior faces battles head-on, not because they are fearless, but because they refuse to let fear win. A warrior acknowledges the struggle but pushes forward anyway. Life will always have challenges, but you are stronger than your worries.

Worry keeps you focused on the problem, while a warrior mindset shifts your focus to solutions. Instead of letting fear paralyze you, choose to take action. Pray, prepare, seek wisdom, and trust that God is bigger than whatever you’re facing.

How do you stop worrying and step into a warrior mindset?

  1. Trust in God’s promises. He tells us not to fear because He is with us (Isaiah 41:10). Surrender your worries to Him, knowing He is in control.
  2. Take action where you can. Some things are out of your hands, but for the things you can change—do the work, make the decision, and move forward.
  3. Speak life over yourself. Instead of dwelling on negative thoughts, remind yourself: I am strong. I am capable. I am not alone.
  4. Let go of what you can’t control. Worry won’t fix anything, but faith will give you peace.

Warriors don’t waste time on worry. They stand firm, trust God, and keep moving forward. Whatever battle you’re facing today, step into it with courage. Be a warrior, not a worrier. You were made for more than fear—you were made to fight and rise.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

High Functioning Depression

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

Do Not Be Afraid

Brandi C

circle of hope counseling services (3)

Do Not Be Afraid

Fear has a way of creeping into our hearts, whispering doubts and worries that steal our peace. Life is unpredictable, and the unknown can feel overwhelming. But in John 14:27, Jesus gives us a promise:

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

The peace Jesus offers isn’t temporary or dependent on circumstances. It’s not the kind of peace the world gives—the kind that fades when life gets hard. His peace is unshakable, steady, and eternal. It is a gift, freely given, meant to calm the storms in our hearts.

Fear tells us we are alone. God reminds us that we are never alone. Fear says the future is uncertain. God says He holds our future in His hands. Fear tries to take over, but God’s peace is stronger.

So how do we hold on to this peace? By trusting in Him. Surrender your worries, lay down your burdens, and know that God is in control. When anxiety rises, turn to prayer. When fear feels overwhelming, lean into His Word. You don’t have to have all the answers—you just have to trust the One who does.

Whatever you’re facing today, take a deep breath and remember: You are not alone. You are loved. You are held. Fear has no power where God’s peace reigns.

So do not let your heart be troubled. Do not be afraid. God’s peace is yours—accept it, rest in it, and walk in the confidence that He is with you, always.

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Let’s Learn About Psychogenic Itching

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

Facing Fear God is Bigger

Brandi C

circle of hope counseling services (1)

Facing Fear: Remember, God Is Bigger

What is your biggest fear right now? Maybe it’s the fear of failure, rejection, the unknown, or something deeply personal that keeps you awake at night. Fear has a way of creeping in, whispering lies that you are not strong enough, not capable enough, not enough. But here’s the truth: God is bigger than your fear.

Fear thrives in isolation. It grows louder when we try to face it alone. But you weren’t meant to carry it by yourself. Seek help. Talk to someone you trust—a friend, a pastor, a therapist. There is strength in admitting that you need support, and there is no shame in reaching out.

One of the best ways to overcome fear is to confront it with truth. What does God say about you? He says you are loved (Romans 8:38-39). You are chosen (1 Peter 2:9). You are not alone (Deuteronomy 31:6). When fear tells you that you can’t, remind yourself that God can.

Pray. Surrender your fear to Him, even if you have to do it over and over again. Fear loses its grip when we trust God’s plan more than our own anxieties.

Take action, even when you’re scared. Fear will always try to keep you stuck, but faith moves forward. One step at a time, you will find that what once felt impossible becomes manageable.

Whatever you are facing, God is bigger. You don’t have to have all the answers, and you don’t have to be fearless—you just have to trust the One who holds it all in His hands.

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Integrity

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

You are Enough

Brandi C

untitled design (1)

You Are Enough

I know it feels like the world can be against you sometimes. The weight of others’ opinions, assumptions, and judgments can be exhausting. But hear me loud and clear: you are enough. You are worthy of love, respect, and all the good things life has to offer.

You do not deserve to be treated as “less than”—not by family, friends, co-workers, or even a stranger having a bad day in a drive-thru. Your worth is not up for debate. You deserve kindness, just as you should extend kindness to others. We are all trying to navigate this life, and we only get one shot at it. Make it count.

People will believe what they want to believe about you. Let them. You cannot control someone else’s thoughts, assumptions, or misunderstandings. What you can control is how you allow those things to affect you. You don’t have to make space for people who tear you down, question your worth, or bring negativity into your life.

Setting boundaries is not just healthy—it’s necessary. Protecting your peace is not selfish; it is self-respect. If that means creating distance from toxic people, do it. If that means cutting them out completely, don’t hesitate. The people who truly care for you will respect your boundaries, not challenge them.

You are not here to prove yourself to anyone. You are here to live, to love, and to embrace the beauty of who you are—without apology. Do not let anyone convince you that you are anything less than enough.

Stand tall. Walk in your worth. And if someone refuses to see it, let them go. You are enough—exactly as you are.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

What is a Traumaversary?

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, Faith Journey, Quotes

You Can Always Begin Again

Brandi C

untitled design

No Matter How Hard the Past Is, You Can Always Begin Again

Life has a way of throwing us into storms we never saw coming. Painful moments, regrets, and heartbreak can make us feel like we are stuck—trapped in a cycle of the past. But here’s the beautiful truth: no matter how hard the past has been, you can always begin again.

Starting over isn’t about erasing what happened; it’s about choosing to move forward despite it. The past may have shaped you, but it doesn’t define you. Every sunrise brings new mercies, every breath is an opportunity to rewrite your story, and every step forward is proof that you are stronger than what tried to break you.

Maybe your past holds trauma, mistakes, or loss. Maybe you carry the weight of things you wish had been different. But beginning again isn’t about forgetting—it’s about healing. It’s about learning to give yourself the same grace you would offer someone else.

The most powerful thing you can do is believe in the possibility of renewal. It doesn’t have to be a grand, dramatic reinvention. Sometimes, beginning again looks like getting out of bed, making one small change, or allowing yourself to dream again. It looks like choosing hope, even when it feels impossible.

You are not your past. Remember, you are not your mistakes. You are a person capable of growth, love, and new beginnings. The past may be behind you, but your future is waiting—with open arms, ready for you to step into the next chapter.

So take a deep breath. Let go of the weight you no longer need to carry. And begin again.

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

What Does Impossible Really Mean

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

I Did My Best, and God Did the Rest

Brandi C

@circle of hope counseling services (4)

I Did My Best, and God Did the Rest

There’s a deep peace that comes with knowing we are not in this alone. We show up, we try, we give it everything we have—but at the end of the day, we are only human. And that’s okay because God fills in the gaps where we fall short. At the end of my life, I want to say “I did my best, and God did the rest.”

Some days, our best doesn’t feel like enough. We carry burdens too heavy, face challenges too big, and battle thoughts that tell us we should be doing more. But the truth is, God never asked us to handle it all on our own. He asks us to trust Him.

When you’ve given all you can—when you’ve prayed, fought, endured, and still feel like you’re running on empty—know that God is still working. He sees what you’ve done. He knows your heart. And He is carrying you the rest of the way.

Maybe today, you feel like you’re falling short. Maybe you’re exhausted from trying to hold everything together. Take a deep breath and release it to God. Let Him take what you can’t carry.

Your best is all He asks for—not perfection, not endless striving, not doing it all alone. Just your best. And He will take care of the rest.

So, trust. Rest in His grace. Know that He is working in ways you can’t yet see. You are not failing, you are not alone, and you are deeply loved.

Do your best, and let God do the rest. 💛

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

What Do You Want To Do?

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey, Quotes

Take a Deep Breath and Try All Over Again

Brandi C

@circle of hope counseling services (3)

Take a Deep Breath and Try All Over Again

Some days don’t go as planned so you need to take a deep breath and tray all over again. You wake up with the best intentions, but life throws curveballs—stress, setbacks, exhaustion, or unexpected challenges. It’s easy to feel frustrated, defeated, or like you’re failing. But here’s the truth: you are not failing. You are learning, growing, and doing the best you can.

When things don’t go the way you hoped, pause. Take a deep breath. And try all over again.

Every single day is a fresh start. A new opportunity. You are not defined by yesterday’s struggles, last week’s mistakes, or the moments where you felt like you weren’t enough. Seriously, you are allowed to reset. You are allowed to begin again. And again. And again.

Trying again doesn’t mean ignoring the hard stuff—it means choosing to keep going despite it. It means giving yourself grace, adjusting where needed, and remembering that progress isn’t linear. Some days will be harder than others, but every time you get back up, you prove to yourself just how strong you are.

So, if today feels heavy, breathe. If you feel like you’ve messed up, breathe. If you don’t know how to move forward, breathe. Then take one step forward—no matter how small.

You are not stuck and you are not failing. You are trying, and that is enough. Keep going. Keep showing up. And when you need to, take a deep breath… and try all over again. 💛

Related Posts

Let Them by Cassie Phillips

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, End the Stigma, Faith Journey

Focus On the Step In Front of You

Brandi C

@circle of hope counseling services (2)

Focus on the Step in Front of You

When life feels overwhelming, it’s easy to get caught up in the big picture—the long journey ahead, the challenges still to come, the uncertainty of it all. But when you stand at the bottom of a staircase, you don’t climb it all at once. You take it one step at a time.

The same goes for life. When anxiety whispers that you’ll never make it, when depression tells you it’s all too much, when the weight of responsibilities feels unbearable—pause. Breathe. Focus on the step in front of you, not the whole staircase.

What is one thing you can do today? Maybe it’s getting out of bed, drinking a glass of water, answering one email, or simply reminding yourself that you’ve survived hard days before. That one step is enough for today. Tomorrow, you’ll take another. And then another.

It’s okay if progress feels slow. Healing isn’t a race. Growth isn’t always obvious. Some days, just standing still is a victory. Small steps lead to big changes, even when you can’t see them yet.

So, if the road ahead feels too long, don’t let it paralyze you. Shift your focus. Just take the next step—no matter how small. And when you do, know that you are moving forward, that you are capable, and that you are not alone.

You don’t have to climb the whole staircase today. Just take the step in front of you. That is enough. 💛

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Happiness Versus Joy

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, Faith Journey

Inspiration of the Day Mark 5:36

Brandi C

circle of hope counseling services (6)

Faith Over Fear: Learning to Trust in God

The inspiration of the day is found in Mark 5:36, which says, “But Jesus overheard them and said to Jairus, ‘Don’t be afraid. Just have faith.'” Faith, according to Webster’s Dictionary, is defined as “belief and trust in and loyalty to God,” “firm belief in something for which there is no proof,” and “complete trust.”

Trust is something I’ve always struggled with—it’s no secret to those who know me well. There are reasons for that, but I am a constant work in progress, learning not only how to trust but who to trust. One thing I know for certain is that God is someone I can lean into fully, without hesitation or fear.

Do I always do that?

Nope. I sure don’t—not all the time. But I am learning. When challenges arise, I remind myself, The Lord is putting this in front of me, not to hurt me, but to give me an opportunity to trust in Him because He has my back. I will, quite literally, repeat this to myself until the issue is resolved or until I find peace. And you know what? It helps. It really does.

My hope and prayer for those reading this is that you can learn to release fear, have faith, and trust God completely. As His children, we are sealed and held securely in the right hand of Jesus. I imagine myself sitting in His palm, His hands clasped around me, and then His hand resting in the palm of God. Nothing can take me away from Him. We are safe. He has us, and He already has the perfect provision in mind for whatever we are facing.

So today, let’s choose faith over fear. Let’s trust the One who holds the universe—and us—in His hands.

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Preconceived Notions: More Than Meets the Eye

Faith Journey

Joy in the Morning

Brandi C

psalm 30 5 sorrow to joy devotional01 25 purple

 

Let’s just leave this right here. Joy in the morning. I highly encourage you to go to YouTube and listen to the song. It is worth it, and I listen to it almost daily. There is a reason and a season for everything under heaven. If we could all just grasp that knowledge, we could truly experience this feeling at any time of the day. I pray you find yours today! Let the lyrics speak to your heart, bringing peace, hope, and encouragement. Trust in His timing and grace! Even when we don’t think it is the right time, in our eyes, it is always perfect in His.

… Everything happens for a reasonBut you don’t know what you don’t know.And you’ll never have peace if you don’t let go of tomorrow.‘Cause it ain’t even faith ’til your plan falls apartBut you still choose to follow.If it doesn’t make sense right nowIt will when it’s over
… There will be joy in the morning
… Giving in to your feelingsIs like drowning in the shallowsOh, you got to keep believingEven in the middle of the unknown‘Cause grace will be there when you come to the end of your ropeAnd you let goIt may feel like you’re going down nowBut the story isn’t over, oh
… There will be joy in the morningThere will be joy in the morning, ayeIf it’s not good, then He’s not done
… There will be joy in the morning(Hold on, hold on ’til the morning) oh we believe, we believeThere will be joy in the morning(Hold on, hold on ’til the morning) oh, aye, wooIf it’s not good, then He’s not doneNo, He’s not done with it yet

Reach Out

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Not All Storms Disrupt

Circle of Hope Counseling Services, Faith Journey

Everything is Gonna be Okay

Brandi C

Everything is Gonna be Okay

everything is gonna be ok

Ya know, Everything is Gonna be Okay. Romans 8:26-28 (MSG) says “Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.”

There are days when I don’t feel like everything is going to be okay. I feel like my life is going to implode and my actions will explode. I have to stop and tell myself that the Lord is not setting up, on his Heavenly throne, eating popcorn and biting His nails wondering what is going to happen next. He already knows. He sees it all. Knows it all and has a perfect provision in mind for ALL things. Trust. It’s hard but it is necessary in our walk with Christ. If I didn’t trust Him, I’d be running down the road, naked, screaming at the top of my lungs. (That last statement comes from my aka mom and she would tell us that when we were children.)

💛 If you’re navigating life’s hard places and need a safe space to heal, grow, or just breathe—Circle of Hope Counseling Services is here for you.

We offer trauma-informed, faith-filled therapy for individuals, couples, and families.

📞 Reach out today to schedule your first session (KY residents only) or learn more: Circle of Hope Counseling Services.

You don’t have to walk this journey alone. Hope starts here.

Related Posts

Ending the Stigma of Mental Illness

He Leaves the 99